Monday, November 06, 2006

HELLos
TODAy went to school
went to this saloon to do something to my hair
with marcia and meet sher and
clara and elaine
went to the canteen
then later after thinking for so long went to have chicken rice
and just chatted
for like one hour pluses
headed for marcia house and chatted again
HAHas
till like kind of late
i found out some stuff
then i nv ever dreamt of
how could i be so blind sometimes
and not opened my eyes bigger
i felt so stupid
at thats moment
i felt like the trust kind of not too strong
how could i ever
went through all these years without knowing
but i guess sometimes that it is good
to forget and whats in the past to be kept there
maybe i am being silly but yar
not doing.anything
but maybe thats me
living there in the black ness of it all


was having mood swings today din felt
good
also don;'t really know why
my mood was just in the pits
but it went better in the eveings
but somehow later my feelings went haywired
and came back to square one
i seem to feel lottas of burdern and things weighing on my mind
i am afraid that
once i close my eyes it will flood back
but hoepfully will not
hahaas
maybe sometimes smiling and laughing
will help to make things better
yes it will
byes:)