Friday, December 29, 2006

i was being super good yesterday staying home
mostly laze on my bed and thought of stuff
shall not elaborate
sleep&eat what a pig i am!
hahahas but have no regrets even though i put on weight
school reopening soon i don;t feel the bubbly excited feeling
i feel alrights
seperated from all my friends
i will miss loads of things
*miss taking my own sweet time toilet breaks
*miss playing during experiment class
*miss rolling notes into a ball&flinging it across the class
*miss whispering and chatting when teacher out of class
* miss those recesses
*miss gossiping
*miss sneaking food into class.and eating sweets
*miss piggy backing
*miss running away from classes that we detest
*oh well mostly i will miss catching days those full-filled noisy days.and miss everyone in class
& esp you.-)*
miss swapping places
miss stoning/daydream?thinking of yous/miss those notes badly.gazing at you
when i feel like it.:)
anyways thanks for those who made my days seems faster to pass.who was there when i was at my lowest point.
and because of them i feel that
school is not boring.i will miss your two years friendship
but each and everyone of you have left..footprints in my heart
<3> i have pretty much pick up precious lesson
in my sec 2 life..if i could have a remote control i will flip back
to the sec 2 days.and look through it

i think you know who you are
valerie clara elaine,(close friends in class)
outside of class(marcia,sher)
its time i move to a new enviroment one which i may not like it
and stuck with it for 3 years
i got to start being sociable
later meeting marcia to head out shooping for my school bag and her clothes
guess i will end here
byes


hopefully i will see you again:).passing by
and i pray really hard my heart do not jump into my throat
maybe just bumping at the corridor?will be satisfied
all the best to you.life was so much less boring when i felt in
l-o-v-e with u.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

another rainy day i feel
cold.moody heavy mood swings
not in a great mood too many things on mind
i really am missing you now
i just want to call you and hear ya voice
though i will come out with some rubbish
and i want to freaking hell figure what is ya impressionn of me
but i would not ever know i detest myself for lacking the courage
to pick up the phone and dial those 8 numbers
why is it so hard?
yesterdy i saw...dots i was hoping you there
so at least get to see u what a foolish thought my mood
will in the end
end up in hell
why cant i give up
i lack a lot of determination,the will
you always belong to someone else
i always see you with.....
whoever
my heart goes in a flutter when i view ya smile and
ya back..or when you are far away and i spotted you
i dunno this blog seems to be the only way i cant vent stuff out
just received a late x'mas cup on it has the pharse printed there
about what you said.in a weird way.
damn it how coincidental.oh well i have it stowed away in a dark place
in my house so would not be reminded
should i be happy because you&i are friends or should
i be sad that you&i cant be more than that?
(edited from someone)
the feelings are geninue maybe you think its fake



i am thinking of some stuff now
and its a real headache did i
make a wrong choice by not opening my eyes bigger
maybe i regret it wasn;t right
this question have been thinking but i cant figure the reason
those times were happy but there were loads of bitter times
feel so pek chek sometimes
oh well i hate to think deep makes me unhappy
i shall post a happy post next time
byes




was rotting at home half the day woke
up like in the noon
such a pig i am such a long time since i woke up so late
blissfulness
until my sis called me then went with her
to watch night at the musemum
such a rare occassion..once in a blue moon
the show was hilarous i was laughing half the time in the show
should seriously go watch
after that ate with her
then back to home sweet home



i feel the preassure i hate it
i hate it i am afraid i may not do the right thing
i am used to a lot of things
i dunno i am really confused
i always feel the stress
ihate it i hate it
why is it always happen on me
since i dunno when
i have learnt to leave with it its been there
iwish the burden will be lifted off then i would not feel it
oh well
byes



was rotting at home half the day woke
up like in the noon
such a pig i am such a long time since i woke up so late
blissfulness
until my sis called me then went with her
to watch night at the musemum
such a rare occassion..once in a blue moon
the show was hilarous i was laughing half the time in the show
should seriously go watch
after that ate with her
then back to home sweet home



i feel the preassure i hate it
i hate it i am afraid i may not do the right thing
i am used to a lot of things
i dunno i am really confused
i always feel the stress
ihate it i hate it
why is it always happen on me
since i dunno when
i have learnt to leave with it its been there
iwish the burden will be lifted off then i would not feel it
oh well
byes



HEYS!
yesterday went 0ut with sher&val to queensway
sher was like LATE.still in her beatuy sleep but was alright me and val
camwore a lot.
i was like super blur wanting to stop at tiong bahru
hmms was considering whether to buy levis school shoes but did not
ate curry chicken spicy
walked round the shops
then they were nicee to follow me to taka to get my pencilbox
but they said did not suit me so did not purchase
headed for bugis.sell really fab clothes bags and heels
cheapo price such a real bargain
sacians were swarming round
but SADLY I did not buy a single thing.
went to buy shoes and my metallic pencil case
went to starbucks full house.addiction to JAVA chip
the love<3>
HAHA SHE is a real idiot.
then went eastpoint with val she accompany me till night
laughs crap loads the oh the stupidilty of it
then bu-sed home alone in the rainy night
the puddles and floods
oh well byes:)

Monday, December 25, 2006

MERRY CHRISTMAS
PEOPLE AND FRIENDS
GOT TO START BEING JOLLY
IN THIS SEASON
yesterday went orchard with marcia&sher&clara
in the morning went marcia church first
then later went to meet them
went shopping round
bought a topshop top and some top from far east
later went to starbucks for java chip
sher was loaded so treated
that drink is nice.legs was hurting badly
later marcia headed for her big feast
we went to yoshinoya.everywhere was full house to th max
after that went pull and bear and walked round
then met marcia hahahs the christmas lightning
and christmas tree was pretty:)

made a really wrong decision to get into the crowd
was jostled around like sardines.hahhas so uptight
later u- turned to elsewhere
hmms everywhere was hot,stuffy and crowded
got stuck in the crowd
went to purchase party streamers
marcia&sher&me was sprayed
by snow foam.those stupid stranger guys attack us from both side
could not have my sweet revenge cause my spray was used up
hahahs whole body filled with foam
and.streamers
went to clean up later finding for
spray on the way to find marcia dad
was sprayed again heard loads ofcrude lauange along the way
hahahahs people spraying into face
anyways came home pretty late
parents was kinda pissed
oh well
school is starting soon
i am feeling down.i still want to have fun
later heading for christmas brunch and dinner
i am going to put on weight suppose to go out
with marcia today for shopping but could not make
it last min.sorry maybe next time
BYES:)

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA CHEONG
ONE YEAR OLDER.AND MORE MATURED
MORe deep. well thanks for
the times where you would
cheer me up.hear me whine&
being my partner in crime
met val early in the morning
was dilly dallying cause was
raning.later went sheralynn
house to help her carry some
stuff..was raning super heavily
pass though the stupid floods
and puddles.headed for school to
wait for b'thday gal.so LATE AS
USUAL.after cutting was chatting
with val then stupid clara smash
choc cake on my face&hair
chasing and this cake fight
chocolates were fling EVERYWHERE
CHOC AND MORES:)clean up went
for lunch stomach was grow-ling
HAHAAHS.was laughing and chatting
those lower sec memories.were
reviving it.i wish time could reverse
yearning for more of those lovely&
silly memories.waited for bus 14 so freaking
LONg.damns after so many 222
val sat with me the bus trip.
she was damn mean throw the coin at me
till it hit my eye.after that i felt like being
playful started kicking water at her
and splashing the feeling of being carefree
was great.i was mental jumping
on puddles playing in rain val was being
super retarded too.then stupid cars kept honking
RAIN.and more rain.yeaps
i am feeling tired now
i guess i will go catch some sleep
byes



home to me now is just a place where i
sleep.and when i feel like being home then i will
go home
and wtf.i am not those guai daughters you wish
to have.i am notorious.
i don;t like being a goody two shoes girl and stayingat
home everyday &study
well i like having fun and enjoying my childhood
damn it
if your not happy with it.so be it
i don;t want to face ya attuide face everyday
it sucks and i am not so smart in academic that
i could score a1.i cant freaking hell score a1
and i cant compare to those cousins of mine
okays you get it
i am different from them.if you enjoy
comparing then go ahEAD AND DO IT
I LIKE ENJOYING
i FREKING HELL LIKE IT
you each day expect me to be a loner
and lead life each day studying till i go mAD
I CANT DO IT
YOU SHOUKD JUST GO ADPOT YA DAUGHTER
SINCE ITS SO EMBARRASING TO HAVE ME
such a freaking disgrace rights
oh well i don;t understand you
nobody seems to understand what is happening

Sunday, December 17, 2006

HELLOS:)
today went.marcia church later went parkmall.
And it seems that the latest trend is that
going toiilet without washing your hands.so disgusting
later went to touch up makeup.
its a first time and i think its fun
took pics and i am so happy this hair product can flattened down
those naughty thing that keeps standing up i am going to buy that hair product.whee:)
yeaps then went orchard with marcia parents.
had lunch.and whenever i go orchard it RAINS
i am just not fated with the weather at orchard.
hrumphs
can't it just be a sunny bright day
wohahahas.
after that went looking round then headed
for suntec swing by this church on the way
yeaps.marcia was super naughty.
we were both like laughing like monkeys
at some stupid thing
then she secretly hid my shoe had to find it
i thought i was laughing till it fling somewhere
my shoes love to disappear on its own

stayed there for a little while
hmms then went shops
there was santa clauses in cute little suits everywhere
offer me&marcia candycanes
how nice.went topshop.topshop offers better than other stores
but so over priced the stupid disadvantage
my legs were aching suntec was huge
kept landing up at wrong places
hahaas.
later then bused back there was this little girl in the bus
who would cry to get fries from us
then would stop
and smile once getting the fries
major cuteness
I AM SUPER HAPPY FOR SOME REASONS
WHICH I CANT FIGURE OUT WHY
BUT I AM JUST HAPPY:)
but i am suppose to be disappointed
at something but surprisingly i am not
and i am suppose to feeel sad
cause i got a feeling its going to be you patching up with that person ohh and marcia thanks for the ear plugger thingy.the one with blood
the makeup.
and that favour..
and the "links"
yeaps
i am tired.
i am going to turn in early
much updates

Saturday, December 16, 2006

HELLOS
i am so bored a late post.
today went parkway with parents.started walking round going
shopping with mum.been to parkway recently with friends.so all that i want to see is seen.
i am considering whether to purchase this rusty wallet.seems so long
later went to look for school shoes but i did not see that kind i wanted
later went for some ice cream then went with dad
for this chicken rice meal and laksa at katong YUMS
now at home watching tv

YES I AM SO HAPPY NOW.
CAUSE OF TWO 2 PIECES OF NEWS I HEARD
ONE FROM MARCIA THE other CLARA:)
YEAPS SO HAPPY
shits i don't think i will be able to sleep tonight
damns
i got to try to sleep
lalalas


wolalas hellos
i am going to be home sweet home today
with my parents oh this bonding thing
hmms maybe later going ikea tampines
or maybe grans house..
yeaps..hai yo i am thinking how i am going
to survive in 3/4 next year with the school
year looming ahead.all the crap
oh how oh how..i am going to be so fcuking
lonely.with me alone
ding dangs i just have to start being sociable
and make new friends:)
hopefully there will be somebody who is my
type.yeaps..got to start getting shoes.and
bags.pencilboxes..and pretty notebooks
stationerys. i will leave that to the last min
cant wait for christmas eve..8 more days
away.i vouch to have the time of my life
before school floods me..anyways this hols
been hectic...hmms next week going tanning
with marcia&sher hopefully the weather is
great..next week will stay home too maybe
so parents allow me to stayyy out
till the next morning got to be ultra good
i am just fumbling and talking rubbish in
this post.
hmms just wondering what should i do this
afternoon been a long time since i stayed in
just bumbbing through.
i am going to have my breakfast.
so byes:).
MANY LOVES

Friday, December 15, 2006

HEYS!
BEEN SO long since i last updated:)
haahas the previous post was
posted by girlfriend marcia
she and her nonesese
pretty much many things had
happened this weeek
yeaps all those friendship stuff
shall not elaboarate but
make me do some thinking
have made me learnt a few lessons
maybe made me grow up a little
but this thing has certainly left a scar there
hopefully it has cure but i learnt that time don't wait
the world does not stop for your grief and does not stop
when you just managed to pick a few lessons
it spins at a faste rate that sometimes i may just get
lost or confused


ohh thanks for those babes who have been
there.much apperciated<3
anywyas its over..LALALAS
yesterday went parkway
with cliques.hahaahs went macs and tutor
ade..while waiting for the rest to turn up
so late hahas and me&marcia wanted to take shuttle
bus but none.hrumphs me&marcia ran for 31
why is it we are always ruunning after buses?
*left me wondering*
almost got killed
marcia was like questioning me why i did not bring umbrella
i was ready to answer when this van honked at us
we just stood on tiptoes and screamed our lungs out
instead of getting to a safer place
gosh so dangerous
was drizzling went topshop.mylphosis
they don't sell that lovely red top
marcia top was on display
went espirit and dorothy perkins they don;t sell
anything that caught my interest
simin was being uber nice treated
sher marcia and me each big scoopz ice cream
this person always loaded filty rich
thanks:).just wondered round
later went back to home sweet home
but sher wanted to take this disc from simin
so me sher and clara headed for her house
i was like running a HIGH FEVER
COULD JUSt fry an egg
and heating up her pillow for her
had a fun time all laughing ;loads
being damn silly.stayed till kinda late
went inter for dinner had no appetite
sher and clara was eating..i was feeling tired
but went shooping looking round
bused back home felt damn sick.the stupid
bus kept jerking..and going like a
suuppper slow like snail.went home
and slept like a log.hahahas
anyways got to go.byes:)

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Sunday, December 10, 2006

i am like super happy today hahas i have no idea why
but yeaps just like that.
went to marcia church in the morning then later town-ed with her
at.orchard with her parents everywhere was having this huge sale
hahahas.then walked round mine and marcia legs were
like aching hell loadshad lunch then went a lot of shops
i did not really see anything that i like.later went mylphosis
marica mum had this discount.got this pair of shoes at a real bargain
thankss
ilove it hahas there was one more pair i like
marcia was shopping for clothes and shoes later went for dinner
hmms now at home
i am so freaking tired after a day at towned walking round
shopping places
oh and i heard a sweet 5 letter word from simin at 10.10 hahahas
suprisingly(hints:i told you)
14 more days till x'mas eve i cant wait
hahas i seem to spent lottas of money for x'mas eve

i am suppose to be in a good mood and not let what i see affect me
i am trying very hard..maybe i should go sleep so it would not affect me
hrumphs hopefully
i am like in a low ,mood now all ya fault lars.
always like that somehow you manage to do it
hai yah wadeva.i want to go sleep
shall update soon:)

Saturday, December 09, 2006

i shall use the chrismas colour
HELLOS:)
today met marcia kinda late to go
for this church thingy
holding this play that was funny
hahas there was this person
and song talking about what
i would do if today was my last day before
i bid goodbye to the world
i will make that confession
and spills my guts out about
what my heart
felt about all the things that had
happened.and i want to spend my last
day with you watching the
beautifulsunset and laying down
on the peebles watching those
bright&shiny stars overhead
pleasureable ahahs
hmms after that had oichimi noodles
and walk round
looking at stuff.marcia don't be sad
alrights about that nike thing
we shall follow accodingto the plan
*naughty grins*went
shopss.sale and more sales
i regret buying that dress
hrumphs.so many other pretty dresses
later then went macs get ic cream
there this ice cream sticky mess
marcia went 7 eleven get me tisssue
thanks..
their tissue is over-priced
later me&marcia kept laughing
in the bus too cause of this sundae ice
cream marcia being so"consideriate"
and some...straps.thats was thislittle
girl laughing at us i was trying very hard
to control were the only ones laughing..so loudly.
blasting her ipod to almost max was being naughty
and she BLLASTING TO MAX MY EADRUMS.STILL NEED THEM
had this crazy idea to head for suntec but was so late so
ditch that idea.
hmms i am so bored i shall go get some sleep
later i get eye bags.i am so depressed school is starting soon.damns.so fast i have not played enough
i wish that there was this outbreak of d****
i know i am evil hahas but i cant stand it
i should stop being horrible as x'mas is near
yeaps
woohahahas
i wish i could get rid of that feeling that has been haunting me
and shadowing me
i suddenly recall those times when
you would.fumble over a question
andi hate to see u that way..

i miss that one week.though it was short
it made me smile..that no on could
those sweet small little thing i remember
though anybody could have do it
but you doing it..make me feel touched
i remember when i heard stuff about you
i would wept in my heart
and wish there was a big downpour that could wash away those
frusating wild thinking and imaginations
i remember those tear-streaked face of yours and my heart lurches
at the memory
i would get so pissed when those people came at you
and though i saw you
finding dots i will feel abundle of mixed emotions circuling round
me and i will think to myself thats its alrights that just seeing you happy is enough
maybe that person is right
those weeping over the phones when i hear dumb news even one day before my b'thday
utter irriatingness.
when those times i would be so worried when you dissappear out of sight
those times when you would fall ill pretty often
hoping ya alright out there
those stupid puupy ears looking at you
and those hurting words you said i tried to rub it off my memory and laughed it off
but my heart is not feeling happy
maybe you see me as the rest of them
sighs.
i miss ya voice.maybe in this world there is somebody who really want to see you
drop to the lowest level of sadness but then i will also becasue of ya sadness be sad maybe ujustnot aware
oh well
those days have been filled with you .and those fun stuff.
i miss it but aywyas i never regretted falling for you
liking someone makes one suffeer
and makes one greedy

oh wells byes




HEYS!
went school to meet simin today.ON the way out met xiner
(hints:she wants to see her name here)HAHAHAs
talk to her for a while then later after that cabbed to marcia house
watch bring it on i never seem to be tired of it
later went to get my sparkling black currant drink
simin got the pierre drink.she wanted to go
popular to look at some disc so went eastpoint
started walking and looking round

i heard a super scary sound
i was super frightened but later i was miss kapo
so went to take a look i felt so soryr for the boy
later..i got so hungry and bored went to ate
seafood hor fun..hahhas.then saw
rachelim&rachel tan.hahahs at first
went bk visit rachel.but was not there
later got a shock for her from behind me
been a long time
yeaps;i got shocked then i boarded a bus
that did not go the destination hrumphs
laughs&chatted till i was super blurr.
funny.went xpo.saw this white handbag that i like
i want to buy it..went home pretty late

i don't want a life for x'mas
there is just one thing i need
i don't care about the presents underneath
the christmas tree
i want you for my own
more than you could ever know
just for one day
mke my wish come true
all i want for christmas is you

i don't ask for much this x'mas
i don't even wish for snow
i won't even make a list to be send to northpole

cause i just want you in tonight
to hug me oh so tight
what more can i do?
i just want you by my side

15 more days till x'mas eve i cant wait:)

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

today went out with marcia sher clara and val for lunch ate chicken rice there wasn't much choice
i was so pissed in the morning i saw myself appear online when i am offline.stupid hacker i want to change my pw
so free the hacker.damns just sat there
and talk later headed to watch casino royale but then was late
so did not watch just went shooping
to get clara wallet such a long walk..to pacific plaza
hhas clara got this brown wallet really suit her
me&marcia headed for roxy nothing really interest me
so yeaps.clara was being MR GENerous
donating 10 bucks for some charity
what a good person..this guy wanted to intro us to work
some advertising stuff
hahahs always seeem to have this.
so later rested at macs
her legs were tired hmms marcia wanted to go take a look or buy some x'mas dress
so we went..topshop.sher choose several tops and we tried
on.i fall in love with this red top.with a ribbon
marcia fell in love with this grey sequin top
which was fab&pretty.
but it was ex.not really worth it for a top
so went far east
so many shops had nice stuff..and dresses and gown like dresses
it was fun in the dressing room:)
poor thing clara you had to wait for us
to try on tops..and yeaps..it was long.i choose this polka dot dress
i hope i don't regret .it
hrumphs..so many dresses did not know which one to choose
so afraid i am going to see something i like more
later went with marcia to buy dress and sher too.
yes we shop loads earings.necklaces
was kind of confused whether to purchase heels
so later did not. went to have dinner
quite late..then went to look for clara clothes
topman me&marcia was taking pics
this really cute hat.
after that went topshop again to lookat more clothess.
there was this unzippable green dress
HAHAHS.
after just walked round the christmas decor was.bright&shiny
x'mas tree was huge.
people taking pics and all
this fountain x'mas tree..
me&marcia went high..laughing away and singing christmas song
bused back slept i was tired
frezzing cold.
byes:)

Friday, December 01, 2006

HELLOS.TODay went PAsir ris with clara&marcia&sher.
went for lunch at macs.had the same meal.i am getting sick of macs.seriously..started fooling round in macs running
and playing.going super high headed for theme park but as super busy with the offers.and LONG QUENES.could
not be bothered..so went for cycling.ughh my bike was unstable at first..later got the hang of it.cycling in rounds under the scorching sun
later just sat round.was infested with mosquitos.how itchy.i prefer east coast..then later just could not really decide where to go.took a long time.to decide then cabbed
to tanah mearh.i was feeling super tired
all my energy drained out..went marcia house and park
hahs later headed for inter.to buy discs..and went fairprice..to buy some ingredients for cooking spags..
HAHAS me&clara&marica was up to no good
we were being naughty.we took some cooked pizza from the toaster.at fairprice trying food.then walk to sher house..such a long way me and marcia
saw the bus starting ruunign after it
was just directly outside..did not even bothered to stop
arghh.never mind.
watch"BRING IT ON"
some new second series disc in the cosy room
snuckling up to the blanket.sher bro helped us cooked spags.so nice..CLARA WAS SUPER SELFISH din even want to share this pillow with me.hrumphs but maanged to snatch
stayed till 11.pluses.sher was madness wanting to go for our cca chalet in the wee hours.but me and clara
objected so bused back with marcia
was scary got to walk the street alone.
HAHAS I WAS FRIGGING scared
came back round 12.15am.
thought of some stuff..when walking the road
i guess the novelty's worn off.have not even been one week
my friends were right
yeah.i was just day dreaming yet again
hmms its no wonders it was swweeet..

anyways BYES:)