Wednesday, December 27, 2006
another rainy day i feel
cold.moody heavy mood swings
not in a great mood too many things on mind
i really am missing you now
i just want to call you and hear ya voice
though i will come out with some rubbish
and i want to freaking hell figure what is ya impressionn of me
but i would not ever know i detest myself for lacking the courage
to pick up the phone and dial those 8 numbers
why is it so hard?
yesterdy i saw...dots i was hoping you there
so at least get to see u what a foolish thought my mood
will in the end
end up in hell
why cant i give up
i lack a lot of determination,the will
you always belong to someone else
i always see you with.....
whoever
my heart goes in a flutter when i view ya smile and
ya back..or when you are far away and i spotted you
i dunno this blog seems to be the only way i cant vent stuff out
just received a late x'mas cup on it has the pharse printed there
about what you said.in a weird way.
damn it how coincidental.oh well i have it stowed away in a dark place
in my house so would not be reminded
should i be happy because you&i are friends or should
i be sad that you&i cant be more than that?
(edited from someone)
the feelings are geninue maybe you think its fake
i am thinking of some stuff now
and its a real headache did i
make a wrong choice by not opening my eyes bigger
maybe i regret it wasn;t right
this question have been thinking but i cant figure the reason
those times were happy but there were loads of bitter times
feel so pek chek sometimes
oh well i hate to think deep makes me unhappy
i shall post a happy post next time
byes
&!burried at 7:51 PM